i'm not fake

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To be honest it’s not easy to be someone other than yourself … or at least to be with others who will never accept you for whom u r ... Once, I’ve lost two humorous friends … I won’t say they were my best (g.f)’s ,,, but I was deeply happy while hanging out with them ... I’m not sorry for being lonely again ,,, because I’ve recognized later, that the air around wasn’t healthy.. !

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And now ,,, I’ve lost someone else … someone I care about .. I don’t know what’s the matter … Is it because of me? Why should I change just to make them happier .. Actually they are unrealistic … they should change not me!

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After some brainstorming … I discovered that I’ve messed up the situation ... I chose to be with the wrong

people and dealt with them too ... I chose the wrong direction to walk in but I haven’t reached its dead-end thankfully … simply I’m not the right girl at the right place! ..as to what I have seen and faced..

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.It turned out that I’m not the one I dreamt of. I have to rebuild my life again now ... I have to be as I look

my ongoing dreams ... I wish that I was wise enough … old enough … and forgiven for who deserved. Maybe now I’ll be in somewhere else … not in this world ...

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Anyhow, I have so many things to say … but I’m afraid from others judgments … It seems that everyone is misunderstanding me … and I can’t live with it .. or maybe am not clear enough while dealing with people around me.

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At the end .. What I want to say is ... if I’m not late .. and I have the chance to choose ... I’ll choose to >>> start over and ask for a chance ... that’s all !